What actually hurts ?

What actually hurts is not the fact that you left .. Is all the memories left . First time we met . First time we went out as a group . First time we spam each others' unglams . First time we went out together . First time we do childish things together . First time you sat above the skating rink seats with me gossiping and talking . First time you took MRT with me . All the morning calls to you preventing you to be late .  Every day's whatsapp . Every day's chats . Every day's guailan . Every day's " goodmorning " and looooong & sweet " goodnight " text . And somemore small details which I cant really thought of now . Hah I really miss that . As time goes by , the text duration grew shorter . I'm not your priority anymore . You're having attitude everytime and I can't seemed to cheer you up anymore . The day when you and your friends joined me for voluntary work . All the cares and flirts . We grew closer and that's the day I fell for you . Yes . That day . Hah you were so sweet that day . I swear . Dramas ? I don't know . Humans are so unpredictable .. The day when you promised to accompany me in library after seeing the doctor , you went to bball and see doctor , left me alone in the library for that day . I was actually super looking forward to that day because it was long since u priorities me . And so you put me aeroplane . Oh well . And afterwards , we grew apart days by days . I really don't understand any single thing . I'm so lost . Why am I still half-hanging down here ..