Why do people even leave

It have been long since I came by blogger . Have been so busy recently . Nope , not social life , not sleep nor I have got myself a buddy . It's just basically school and work . I lost all my motivation for school . What's the point of working so hard when you are going to die one day ? Why suffer yourself to get great achievement when you cant bring all these with you when you die . Not only school , I lost my motivation in life too . Idky .

Came across a " tumblr tweet " , saying that ' Im used to it , used to being used , used to being everyone's last choice , used to ............ ' and etc which i cant remember . Deep in my thoughts , i thought that why complain when you used to it ? Why are you even attracting other's attention . Yes i'm ironic . Yes . Im losing hopes in everything . 

Being too dramatic arent good . Getting into a mixed-gender school , nothing's good . I do not have a hot relationship in it and i'm graduating soon . No , I dont have a guy bestfriend who belongs to me . No , I dont have a great 4years in school . No , nothing dramatically sad then happy happened . It's like I simply wasted this 4years of life . I regretted . Why didnt I study hard for PSLE and get into a girls' school ? Then maybe my life will change . How I wish time rewinds , a lot of things will change and I will not be as sad as I am right now ..